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Protected: Thoughts – Acquiring Respect. Thursday, May 28 2009
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Rant, Rave, Review. Wednesday, May 20 2009
Uncategorized 10:36 pm
Yesterday evening I went to the office to have a meeting with group that I’m working with to develop a company. It was the brain-child of my dad, that he asked me to be apart of.
Without getting into much detail, lately after talking business, it’s a coffee table rant session for the group of men. Yes, I’m the only gal in the bunch. I get along with men, they are easier to understand, but not when they’re in mid life, that offers some unique challenges..
Lately, I jokingly laugh, that (when the business meeting is over) it turns into a gossip session where the group of men chat on like old ladies (no offended tone intended.) Seriously, these men have me completely dumb-founded in astonishment and laughter. Each one is different, so each guy brings a different thing to the table when they ‘chat.’ My mom and I think it’s a mid-life crisis type of thing because each guy in this group is middle-aged, except for one that occasionally sits in.
Back to yesterday, I sit there asking partner *2 about doing me a favor. It suddenly goes completely south as partner *2 begins his rant on, complete lecture on his opinion on, of all things… horse slaughter. It wasn’t that random, but I was explaining my other blog (in regards to this favor) and we began discussing this subject. Patner *2 is very opinionated, even so on things he doesn’t really know throughoughly. It didn’t surprise me that he veered so off course about this subject, but I was a little shell-shocked that his opinion reflected that of someone without much compassion.
Knowing how opinionated this person is, I have to be toughed skinned to just get myself over it and move on. But, as someone who is a little more informed on the horse slaughter subject, I sat there openly debating and sharing information that he didn’t know (that he should have, since he was sharing such strong opinions).
I don’t know what I come off as sometimes, but people always seem to need to set me in my place. It’s older people that seem to have some insecurities that do this to me. They constantly have to find ways to up-stage me to remind me that I really don’t know what I’m doing or what I’m talking about. ‘You’re young’ syndrome..
Like K* for example, ALWAYS had things to say to me, usually in a negative light, regarding caring for my horses. Had it been from a place of honest, caring, help, I would have never thought twice about why she was constantly sharing her opinions – it’s a good thing. But because everything that came out of her mouth to me was from a place of jealousy, frustration and insecurities, I knew that she was doing it to put me down, to bring herself up. She was embarrassed because I was there everyday to take care of my horses, while she, only a walk from her front door to the barn in her backyard, couldn’t even properly take care of the basic necessities that horses require. Like cleaning a paddock….
K* constantly was threatened by me because it made her feel and look bad. Instead of fixing the core issue itself, she resulted to putting me down and making me feel bad to, in her mind, justify and excuse her wrong-doings.
I get this all the time. But it’s so weird, because I’m a pretty open minded, I think, a respectful young person. I genuinely respect the wisdom that people beyond my years have. I’m always respectful of my elders. I’m rational minded and grounded. The last thing I come off as, ‘is some young girl that think she know’s it all.’
I think because I’m so open minded people see me as bait to feed their insecurities, to make themselves feel important. I’m so open minded at times, that I come off as not knowing anything because I don’t share anything whilst hearing what someone has to say. – Usually I don’t say anything because people love feeding their ego’s with my willingness to be educated and informed. And as soon as they have an opportunity to feed that ego, they think I know nothing and don’t want to hear anything from me because they get a taste of ‘knowing it all.’ It’s so interesting!
It’s sometimes disappointing to me, believe it or not, because I’ve had better hopes for a person that uses me as ‘ego feed’ because I thought that they were better than that. Sometimes if a person is like that, their opinions (which I always learn something from) can be tainted, like *K’s were.
Protected: River, Rewind and Plans. Monday, May 18 2009
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Protected: Waiting For Mail… Wednesday, May 13 2009
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Back Here Monday, May 11 2009
Uncategorized 4:15 am
I am now back to blogging here. 
I’m going to have some posts public, some private, depending on their contents. If you’re interested in being able to read the private posts, I do require you to answer a few short questions over email. If you’re a fellow blogger, let me know if you want get access by commenting so I know your blog association. Lots of fun stuff to come!!
Projects – Photographic Memories for Parties Tuesday, Nov 18 2008
Uncategorized 7:00 pm
This weekend is my Grandpa’s 92nd Birthday. It will be interesting to see how this comes together. Ah families.. However for the first year I’ll be occupying my time, doing what I love best, photography. Memories to be had and documented in time. So I’ll secretly escape to capture the core of the party, my Grandpa. Like I’ve said before, he’s an honorable man. Good, honest, hard working, inspirational. The photographs I take, hopefully will capture he’s quiet and very wise personality.
For someone else’s birthday, I took some photographs of her son. He came fishing with us on Friday and Sunday, our adopted brother we call him. Very much apart of our family. His dad isn’t involved in his life hardly at all, a sad situation, but we’ve embraced him as part of our family. He views my dad as a father figure and has my younger brother, which are best friends and the rest of us to hopefully help him along and be there for him when he dad, chooses not to be. His mom is someone I look up to. She’s classy, tasteful, grounded and a good mom. It was my own moms idea to give her a photograph for her birthday. I took some while he was fishing and now we have a lovely memory for her to have.
Photography – Sunday by the Sea Monday, Nov 17 2008
Uncategorized 11:03 pm
On Friday, we went fishing. My mom and dad didn’t come during this trip, but Matt, my two brother’s and a couple friends came along. It was an after work trip, so we didn’t plan on getting out there before the sun was gone. We went out by the Ocean and fished under the night sky. The beach was lit up from the full moon and the sky was clear. Perfect night for fishing. Except that we didn’t make much sucess in the, actually-catching-a-fish department. I sat in my chair, pole in hand, waiting. Fishing is a game in which patience is the only option, the only way to succeed. Similar to horses, but in an odd way you are more active in your patience pursuits. (Was that an oxy-moron?) Ah well, we came home with nothing to show for our hours of huddling under the moon. Nothing, nada, zip.
Sunday we decided we would go fishing again. This time during the beautiful day, yes the Ocean was spectacular for the second day in a row. These days do not come along all that often if you live by the sea. After the less than great fishing attempts on Friday, I wasn’t enthused about fishing again. But Matt generously bought me a day license and off we went. When you’re fisihing for leopard shark and halibit, you don’t reel and cast (right?) like what I consider, “normal” fishing. So it’s way boring in my eyes. I ignored my pole and took up my camera. Yes, finally some fun!! Ok, ok, I’m not putting down fishing, but it’s just not something I get an adrenaline rush out of.
This dog, isn’t ours, but the owners were fishing next to us and I wanted to get some pictures. It would get so excited everytime anyone would go to reel in or cast. Couldn’t resist getting some photos of him. Hey, at least someone was making some fun out of the waiting game..
I took about 130 photos. My battery went dead because I did a quick charge before we left the house. I need a spare, because I sure was disappointed I didn’t get more. The day was just so beautiful. Some of my favorite shots from today:
